I love the holidays for the family and the food. I hate the holidays for the traffic and the crowds. I hate crowds. h-a-t-e. I hate tons of people, and long lines, and no parking. I get anxiety and feel claustrophobic and irritable. It wasn't until I was an adult that I realized this about myself. Big crowds at amusement parks -- hate. Big crowds at football games -- hate. Big crowds at concerts or parades or shopping. Hate, hate and hate. Traffic. Hate. Wedgies. Hate. Although those are unrelated to crowds for the most part. I don't know what it is that drains me about being around tons of people. Well, yes I do. I'm a closet introvert. A loud, obnoxious, life of the party kind of introvert. Ever heard of one of those? Maybe I'll post about it sometime. But for now I'm just going to whine about it.
I'm home today with all my kiddos off school, and nothing but baking and Christmas decorations on the agenda, and I'm so happy about it! A day with no plans, no reason to get dressed, and every reason to hang out with my kids, listen to Christmas music and eat treats. Perfection.
I'm off to eat fudge for breakfast. Peace.
Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts
Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts
26 November 2014
27 October 2014
Groceries Smosheries
Grocery shopping stresses me out. Big time. I feel like I have to have all my meals planned and know all the ingredients I need, and that is overwhelming to me. So I put it off and put it off until my children are eating shoelaces and ketchup for dinner.
At that point I run to the store just for the basics, and end up coming home with chocolate peanut butter, hot pink sugar cookies, and a random cut of meat that I know nothing about, but it was on sale, so why not. I manage to spend a billion dollars at the store and somehow WE STILL HAVE NOTHING TO EAT. How does that happen?? It's like I'm living some sick joke over and over again while slowly starving to death.
So I experiment with the on sale mystery meat for dinner and my kids end up complaining and making gagging noises and asking if they can please have shoelaces instead. It's a vicious cycle.
If I ever become a katrillionaire (it's a real word) I will have an in-house cook who does all the meal planning and grocery shopping. And dishes. Obvi.
Until then, I will be over here writing on this blog to avoid going to the grocery store. Good thing we have a lot of shoelaces.
09 October 2014
Q&A: I feel so alone
I got this email from a reader a few weeks ago, and thought there might be others out there struggling in similar ways. It is posted here with her permission.
Q: I'm wondering if I can ask for a bit of your help....I've been struggling with lots of up and down emotions from a miscarriage last year [I have since had another baby] and I'm realizing I might now have some postpartum anxiety/depression I've been dealing with the last few months. I thought I'd be able to manage it on my own but I'm finding that I might need some professional help...but I don't quite know where to turn or who to trust or talk to and if medication is good or bad or even what I'm experiencing is really something?! I've just been feeling very alone. I thought of you and how you might be able to help me understand some of this?
A: There are so many good questions here, let me briefly address them:
- Having lots of emotions after a miscarriage is normal and expected.
- Having lots of emotions after a baby is normal and expected.
- Having lots of emotions after a baby/miscarriage that are persistent, mostly negative, interfering with your eating/sleeping/motivation/daily life, or leading to thoughts about hurting yourself or your baby are not normal and should be taken seriously.
- You do not have to feel so trapped! You do not have to feel negative and overwhelmed all the time! If the majority of your time is spent in tears, or feeling completely overwhelmed/anxious, it would likely be a good idea to seek professional help.
- There are two main kinds of professional help -- medication treatment and talk therapy. I suggest you get an assessment with both.
- I recommend getting a medication assessment from a psychiatrist or nurse practitioner specializing in psych meds. Your general doctor or OBGYN can prescribe medications as well, but their knowledge is less specialized in psychotropic medications and you are more likely to find the right medication combo (if needed) with a specialized doctor.
- Medications are not bad! They have a bad rap with a lot of people, but they can truly be life saving. If a prescriber recommends you begin taking medication, decide if that feels right to you. Educate yourself on the medication you are prescribed. Taking medication to stabilize your symptoms does not mean you will have to be on meds forever. Some people are on medications their whole life -- awesome. Some people need them for short term stabilizing (short term meaning different things depending on your situation) -- great. And some people will never need them at all -- fine. Try to put away your misconceptions and get educated so you can decide what is right for you with what you are experiencing.
- As far as who to make an appointment with, I would ask around. Ask friends if they have been to therapy, ask your church leaders (usually clergy work closely with one or two therapists/prescribers they could recommend), google local clinics and read reviews, find a therapist who has experience with depression/post-partum issues.
- Lastly, find a community where you can be supported and reminded that you are not alone! This could be an online forum, it could be reading articles about what you're experiencing, it could be emailing the lady at that one Have Joy blog (that would be me), it could be looking up quotes that inspire and uplift you, it could be praying to feel God's love, it could be talking to friends or family. Doing these things will not make your symptoms go away (if they are severe), but it can help lighten your load and allow you to begin to feel hope for the future.
That was a long and serious post. Thanks to the reader who sent in the question. I hope others can benefit from you sharing your experience.
To my readers: Do you have experience with miscarriage or postpartum depression? How did you cope? Do you have experience with psychiatric medications? What would your advice be to this reader? Do you have any words of encouragement to offer her? Please leave a comment (anonymously if you are more comfortable) of support if you feel so inclined. Like the Beatles said, we get by with a little help from our friends.
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