Words that make me think from a song I love:
This is how it works
You're young until you're not.
You love until you don't,
You try until you can't.
You laugh until you cry,
You cry until you laugh.
And everyone must breathe,
Until their dying breath.
No, this is how it works,
You peer inside yourself,
You take the things you like,
Then try to love the things you took.
And then you take the love you made,
And stick it into some,
Someone else's heart,
Pumping someone else's blood.
And walking arm in arm,
You hope you don't get harmed.
But even if it does,
You'll just do it all again.
--On the Radio, by Regina Spektor
This is how it works
You're young until you're not.
You love until you don't,
You try until you can't.
You laugh until you cry,
You cry until you laugh.
And everyone must breathe,
Until their dying breath.
No, this is how it works,
You peer inside yourself,
You take the things you like,
Then try to love the things you took.
And then you take the love you made,
And stick it into some,
Someone else's heart,
Pumping someone else's blood.
And walking arm in arm,
You hope you don't get harmed.
But even if it does,
You'll just do it all again.
--On the Radio, by Regina Spektor
4 comments:
on the radio, uh oh. on the radio uh oh.
So true, I normaly use firefox but with windows it's just fine. Huh
So...I checked on your blog tonight and realized you have a new one! Checked that one out and almost started crying for you when I read your anger post. You are amazingly eloquent in your feelings. I unfortunately remember those feelings from my own divorce. The unfairness of it all. The feelings of no control in the whole situation. Why did my kids have to be from a broken home? This wasn't supposed to happen to me. I did everything right. Etc...
Thank Heaven we have the gospel. Thank Heaven that we KNOW our Heavenly Father loves us, because sometimes we're not even sure if anyone will love us again. My spirit was ground into the dirt and I had to find myself again.
You can do it. You can make it. You are and will be a great Mom! You are a daughter of God and a beautiful human being. And feeling that anger occasionally is perfectly fine. And feeling sadness, and mourning the loss of what could have been is normal too. Remember who you are and return with honor. Julia
P.S. I hope I didn't make it sound like I was perfect in my marriage. I'm not a perfect person. I'd be twinkled if that was the case. (obviously that didn't happen!) There's always a way to be a better person. Just gotta keep plugging away at it! Julia
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